It is just going in circles.

It is just going in circles.
i know this is gonna be a little emotional, but please bear with me, because i really need a place for me to let this all out..
did you ever once felt that things are sometimes done in a way that you wouldn't like it? well, i think i am feeling like this now. To me, everyday is just like a waste of a moment of my life, because due to some reasons, you can't act like yourself..Sometimes, i just can't find a right person to express my feelings out, still can't find the person that i can trust, i really can't take these emotions anymore.

studying is interesting

thanks for everything.

I feel that is studying is beginning to be very interesting towards me now. maybe it's the words from a special person that motivated me to pick up studying again. although the way person used was not really appropriate, but i felt that she was motivating me in a way, and yah, i am very thankful of what she has done. because she really make me feel like studying once again. hahah. back to studying food science. (:

band camp.

Band Camp.

Back from camp, it's been 4days and since i left home, lol. kinda missed sleeping on my bed. [:

Throughout this 4days of intensive training, i can say that i had really learn alot, and our conductor also said we had improved alot as compared to the standard we play before the camp. and during the camp we are really pushed to our limits to do our best that we could. although there are no games, but we are still contented with what we have and what we not have. and in exchange for our games, we get to learn new techniques and proper way of playing our instruments. playing with the correct intonation, rhythm. learning new rudiments and finally playing together as one, big band. this is the first time that i felt that the band is improving. and it really motivates me and also at the same time make myself willingly contribute to the band.

During this 4days, i also found out more about my section member's character. how they work, and how they react, when they faced obsticles during the camp. Although some of us have misunderstandings for each other, but we still managed to talk things out together properly, and also understands what each and other are thinking about. Maybe it's a good thing that we talk things out rather than keeping secrets among ourselves. [:

and walter ng. you know that your n-levels are coming. therefore, you must study to achieve what you want and not disappoint your friends and yourself alright?


-i am listening to my heart.

Batam Trip

i am in love with you;

Hm, today we got back all of our results. I can say that i almost flunked all of my subjects, aww, that's pain. argh, nvm. There is always room for improvement yea? Guess i need some math and chemistry tution during the june holidays. Prelims are around the corner, no excuses for me to slack. So if you see me slacking, pls tell me to study, i will appreciate that alot! haha! jkjk. Hmm, tomorrow there's a secondary 4 motivational camp organised for all the normal acad classes, and we will be going to batam, to enjoy ourselves? haha! okay la, we're going to this 4-star resort there, call Harris Resort, just hope that all of us will enjoy ourselves before we start all the intensive mugging again! hahas! band camp is around the corner too, maybe it's time for me to warm up on drum ruduiments again before i really flunk. xD

-am i being a dummy again?

mini band dinner

Maybe we are possible;

Friday.


The meal that we prepared for the band mates.



Justin & Me.


Smile man! hahah!

Haha, went out with phyllis and her friends for a movie that we are forced to go ! haha. But we enjoyed it afterall! Anyway, we watched Iron Man, and i think that this movie is really very nicely presented. The main actor, Robert Downey Jr, is taking on the role of a troubled billionaire Tony Stark - aka Iron Man who is kidnapped and forced to build a devastating weapon. Then using his intelligence, he went to build a high tech suit and escapes. There are exciting parts of the show, like the part where he escapes from the kinappers, and the part when he is building his iron man machine. This show is rated 4/5 stars for me as i think it is really a must see movie. :D After watching the movie, Phyllis and the others accompanied me to the Basement 1's Polar cake shop, then from there, i met up with my sister and her boyfriend, then after that, i bet farewell to Justin and the others and went to the carpark, then after that, arrived at tpy for the dinner with my family. Overall, the dishes are nice and yummy!

Haha, Had a great time today. :]

-Is it to late to say that i need you?

Maybe i regretted for not cherishing the chances that you have given me;

4am

I feel the same as before;

It's 4am now. And i know i am definately thinking of her, i don't understand why. Maybe i am just overreacting over her? I really don't know how to describe this feeling that i am going through right now. =/

I feel that you shld give me a chance to talk to you.

Because i really need you in my life;

Exams are over! Photos

Justin Looks GHOSTLY. HAHAH!


COLGATE AMBASSADORS. CHEEESEEE!! :D

Justin and me;





HotDog Factory! :D






Leon and Dillon

It looks edited right? But it's not! :D

Hi-FIVE! :D

This summarises my day! Hope you guys enjoyed my post! :D

I hope you're smiling too! :D

Exams are over!

EXAMS ARE OVERRR!!

Hahah. Finally, exams are over. All my hardwork that i've putted in really didn't go into waste. During this 2 weeks, i have really putted in effort to study, therefore, i really hope my results would be good ! :D


Today, after our exams, justin and the others came over to my house to slack abit, and after that, we went to Cathay to watch the movie, "Over the dead body". But before that, we went to HotDog Factory to have our lunch! haha, justin said that the chicken baked rice was nice. But at that point of time, i wasn't that hungry, so i pre-ordered it and it delivered to be later on when the movie is showing. It was damn nice i tell you, the chicken was very nicely done and the cheese just tells your mouth that it wants more, ridiculous right? haha!



Ps: Photos would be published asap! :D

05' May

because you live.

"Be with you"20k audition prepaid
The gigantic keyboard at @club!
@club wide screen & gigantic keyboard! and leon's hand. :X

5 down, 3 to go! finally, i am about done with my exams. For the past few weeks, it's all preparation for the Mid-years, didn't really enjoyed the time in school at all. But my goal is getting near, just 3 more papers, Physics, Chemistry and F&N elective. After all of this, everything is back to normal again! No more mugging, no more backaches and headaches! I can finally live normally in school again! haha! andddd......HOLIDAYS COMING!! 24TH MAY! YAYNESS. I think i am already going crazy just thinking of what i am gonna do during the holidays. :X

are you waiting for me? i really hope that you are, because
old feelings is already starting to flashback on me ;

i am sorry, but i love you.

Fairytales

Just like all fairytales, it all comes to an ending..

For me, it's a tragic one..

-Mixed Feelings;

Out of blow , friendship grows .

Today is the day.

Well. I think i had just forgotten her already. Hope i would treat like a friend now.. Chinese New Year is not a bad day after all.

SMILES. x]

My quote of the day.

You'll never move on if you keep thinking about the past, but the past is also what keeps us rooted and shapes our future.

A friday evening..

YawNz... Life's getting boring day by day. For band. Hope i can play timpani better with a good kind of sound. No screw ups and play it properly.. For Percussion Section, hope the new recruits could pick up skills fast and swiftly. Not like those china girls from the last batch. Hope percussion would be the most unitied section for 2007? =X I HOPE.

-Band tomorrow. Going NYP after tt. go support whitley's broadcasting.

Hope something "Interesting" would happen there tomorrow !

-WaLteR Ng Hua Te.

The Long Night..

Is 12:51am now.. And i still cant get to sleep. Dont know why am i thinking about her so much since we broke up on christmas.. It's like when we are steading.. Everything went wrong..I know my attitude was wrong towards her.. I really know.. But all i wanted is her to know.. To understand that i need her more than anyone do.. I can feel that she knows what i am thinking.. But why..Give me a huh when i always ask u whether you understand what i am talking about.. Is it because we are lacking of communication? You treat your god kor better than me now lah.. I feel so so bad. The fact that i lost you.. And so concerned about you now and then. Maybe you dont know. When people are speaking bad about you.. i would always try to change their impression towards you. because i know that it will affect you somehow..So i will always try to help you avoid all this misunderstandings.. But now.. I know that i really really am sincere towards you.. But i really dont understand why you don't wanna give me a chance.. At least you give me a chance. I can prove it to you that how serious i am towards you, how loving i am, how sweet i am towards you. I admit that i had cry lots of times because of you. And because of that. My heart hurts alot. Everytime when i woke up from bed. The first person i had in my mind was Agnes Wan. No one else but you. I dont understand why always when you see me around you will always feel uneasy or uncomfortable bah.. Is it because i have a scary face? I will try to change it if you dont like it. Seriously i could do anything for you if you just tell me. As long as you are happy i am willing to do it. I am missing you every minute every second of my life.. =((

The Kitten. =(

when i was on my way home ah.. at the lift there.. gt 1 little kitty. i tot is a normal thing tt has a lot of " ye mao la"

then right. i press the lift. then i went in. then the kitty also come in leh..

i am sort of shocked lah..

then it keep following me..
then bo bian.. decided to take the stairs.


i walk all the way to 3rd floor. so that can take the lift from there mah. because the cat at the first floor.


then when i was waiting for the lift. i heard a sound.. miaOOO~ miaOOO~


then suddenly.. it came up and look for me..


then i just went into the lift and went up to home..


if u really go and take a deep look at the eyes right. you can imagine tt. the cat is talking to you lo. " Please help me..I been here for a few days.. no one wants to feed me..please..please..i beg u" =(

dont know what happened to it lah. Maybe its hungry or sth.

Wa liew..i feel so bad now leh. >.<


Really really i mean it. =(

BBQ. [Prefect's night]

Around 4pm or so..after playing maple..I am getting ready to go east coast..It is RAINING! But i decided to go east coast park for the prefect's gathering BBQ anyway. Hmm. I brought an umbrella along also..Dont know why hahaz, hmm went downstairs and took a mercedus cab. =DD On the way was very boring..So i decided to message my laopo, hmm. Then around 40mins or so. I reached east coast macdonalds. It cost $11.90! GOSH. that is so ex. Gone down the cab, met glenn and kenneth at 1 of the sits outside. Hmm joey and her family also. It was still raining then. After that Me, glenn and kenneth went to buy butter and a brush for the BBQ while joey and her family is sitting at the chairs.. After we came back from 7-11. Me and glenn and the others went fun land and see people play. After that, went down again to prepare for BBQ because the rain stopped. After we reached the pit and started BBQing. The others also are very cooperative and helpped organise everything. And after eatting until very full everybody just went cycling and walked away.After 2 hours or so..the sun sets, this is when everybody starts to be very sad bah. Cause some songs we played just reminds them of the past years in the prefectorial board. We sort of get together in the end and sing a song for Hong Yap. Kinda forget about the song but we sang it in a memorable way ba. Hands on each others shoulders..=DD Hmm. The prefects are the best at cooking man. People like, Qaiser, Danial and others more..When we need them they will always to help us cook some food. The chickens are damn nice lah. Not like the chickens i at at james house a few months ago. YUCK hahas.Then alot of people went and chit chat at the sea there.. and some played soccer while i called my darling..=DD. Hmm after that. We all left and throwed everything in the bin. Some need to rush home and take a taxi le. So, me, weiting and Junxuan took the 13 bus home. We talked so entertaining all the way lah. SO fun hahas. Then we went past GEYLANG? SO FUNNY lAH. cause hong yap was like talking about the chickens he merranate this morning? what.." Wo Yong Yuan Bu Yao Zhuo JI" hhaas. He messaged 80 chickens today..=X SO.. funny lah hahas. And we gayed with Jun XUan on the bus also. He was so man and we are so gayying him. Cant help but laugh. AFter that. HE left at potong pasir station and weiting at bishan there. And i left hong yap at the golf course. Near my house. On my way home. I called my darling again..Because i just missed her so much. Can't live a day without talking to her..Dear i miss you so much..=]

ANd thats the end of my day. Hope you like it people xDD

Wan Mong Ting Agnes.

Hmm. Guess why i use this title for my post?

Simple. Is because..she's my laopo! HEHE. I had known her for about 1year plus le.. Been chasing her for around 1 year plus also. Even though i had given up on her for quite a period of time, i think that the time is not wasted! Because during the time, i learn lots of things from my friends. But is for my own good. I THINK? Yah..then after 1year plus of chasing after her, i think i finally got what i really wanted..The girl that is always on my mind. Whenever i feel down or sad, i think she would be the first to comfort me bah. At first i think is quite impossible to get her after so many things had happened. But i would never expect that she is MINE now.. I can't belief it for myself also. She made me realised alot of things..the true taste of LOVE bah. What a stead should do, should say. And all the things we could thing of. The date we finally steaded was 13 Oct 2006. [ 13-10-2006], its very special because 13th is agnes's favourite dream number and 10 is my favourite even number. And we stated at [13.10] and 29seconds. I could remenber everything in my mind now. The things i bought for her. Said to her, promised her, did for her. Aiyah. i feel very satisfied having her already. She is already like an angel, a princess in my life. I would always cherish her and hope nothing bad would harm her.=] Right now i just want her to understand how important she is to me. and hope she won't doing silly things to herself. It just hurts me lots. Dear, promise me not to hurt yourself okay? I love you.

James House BBQ. Part 2

After a few rounds..Its leonard turn..Next is James again..HAHA he refused to drink so we went after him..Push him to the pool and his jeans bottom are wet. And he said.."F**K u lar.." hahas..Next..It was joel..We just remenbered that his birthday was in 2 days time..SO eric, yuki and I went to throw him to the pool..Same..Jeans below wet..Next was Leonard..This time..His Butt is wet..xD After that..We ran away, hmm..Then we went downstairs to ask Eric to run..Because the rest are looking for him..And YUKI and I DONT WANT TO GET WET!! hahas..So we played hide and seek..But unfortunately, the guards came and we stopped..After that, we cleared everything and go home..Because Yuki mum was here..We all walked to the car park..And Hamdan and I took a lift from yuki's mum..After we settled down in the car..I just realised..i LOST MY PHONE!! OMG..I WAS SO SHOCKED..that i had a short HEART ATTACK.. I asked Stacey if she saw my phone..And she said No..So i went to search high and low for it..For a short while i wanted to cry..But i can't, hold my tears and continued searching..Went to the playground with Eric, Joel and stacey..Found nothing and the guard helped us abit by calling..Until Yuki's mother called and told us they found it in the car...Finally i am relived..Hahas and i just shooked everyone's hands, and said farewell to them and took Yuki's mother's car home..

This Night told me something..Without friends you are nothing, But with FRIENDS, WE are everything.. =]

James House BBQ.

I was supposed to meet Yuki at Junction 8 at around 4:30pm..By the time i went downstairs to take the bus..The bus 54 went off already..=( then i am afraid that i am late..SO i took a taxi down J8..Wa Lau $3.30..Still okay lor..SOMEMORE YUKI NOT THERE..WTH. So i called eric to get his house number..Called and the person that picked up the phone was his mother..Scary huh..So i said i am Walter and she called him..And he picked up the phone..Wah..Kinda surprised la..Cause its already 4:35pm le..He said he gonna take the chakcold and stuff..So he said wanna have a lift from his dad anot..So i said okay..Meet me at the j8 bus stop near the 7-11..Wah buses and cars passed by..And he reached after 30 mins..=( so took a LONG lift and finally reached james house at newton..After we reached the pit, we only see Hamdan, James and Danny..So we went to buy stuff..Went to search for more chakold and firestarters..Went to Cold Storage and search dont have..SO we went to Novena Cold Storage also dont have..So we bought some chakold at novena first..And finally..We ran to Cheers across the road, AND SAW FIRESTARTERS...After around 1hr i think..=P

Went back..Actually wanted to take a taxi..Cause James sponser ma..=P but we didnt..We ran all the way from Novena to James House at newton..SO FAR, but we managed it in the end =P After we reached..We saw more people..Stacey, Joel, and leonard hahas..But we forget something..The icebox and lighter..And again..Went to Unitied square no ice box..So went back to the condo..-_- After around 1hours..The food is ready..Ate the chicken and it takes like " RUBBER BAND "..Hahas..But after a while its okay la..PLAYED a game of..a cup of drink..Sealed with aluminium foil..And some tooth picks on it..Smaller pieces..And use a satay stick to pook the foil..Loser drink everything..Hahas James was the first..SO he drank the cup of..Drink with BBQ SAUCE AND LOTS.