Crementation.

I read a note my grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat and he showed it once to me
He said boy you might not understand
But a long, long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none
But I love your grandma so

We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter
And this is what it said

If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then ‘til I see you again
I'll be loving you, love me.

Self-Delusional.

i am tired.


i am just tired of all these guessing games.
it just seems too similar to be true.
How things happen, and it might happen to another person at the same time too.
maybe i am just being stupid, thinking that guessing might help.

i regretted.

regretted for making wrong moves and resulting in so much awkardness when we meet.
maybe i am wrong all along. i am just a complete idiot.

Love?

We've been through alot, haven't we? But I guess you can't expect perfection. (: but you've got to know that I love you , and no one else (: so no matter what happens, always remenber that (:


because anything can happen. <3

-I get what you meant :/


"Hey, just in case you want to know. I'm crying now. It isn't all rainbows and sunshines for me either, and i hate having to do this, but I know that i've really got to CONCENTRATE these next two weeks and you've got to too. Remenber how you said that there's always an alternative solution to everything? I'm sure you'll find a way out of whatever that's troubling you now (:
Because isn't that what you always manage to do for me? * **** ***,** *******.
All that matters."


-I don't think i might be that strong as ever now. :/


Well, maybe all of this is just a big misunderstanding between the both of us.
I didn't have the chance to explain and i think i will never will..I didn't expect everything to turn out like this, seriously.because this incident really affected me ..
My school life, band, studies and my results..maybe it's all too late now. I really regretted for causing this big misunderstanding.
But i swear, i didn't expected things to turn out like this at all, as my intentions at first was you to be happy.. I guess i was wrong. :/


Well, maybe i am still unable to erase you from my life.
Because all i know now is, i miss you.
and it's true, this time.
xoxo.