Crementation.

I read a note my grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat and he showed it once to me
He said boy you might not understand
But a long, long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none
But I love your grandma so

We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter
And this is what it said

If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then ‘til I see you again
I'll be loving you, love me.

Self-Delusional.

i am tired.


i am just tired of all these guessing games.
it just seems too similar to be true.
How things happen, and it might happen to another person at the same time too.
maybe i am just being stupid, thinking that guessing might help.

i regretted.

regretted for making wrong moves and resulting in so much awkardness when we meet.
maybe i am wrong all along. i am just a complete idiot.

Love?

We've been through alot, haven't we? But I guess you can't expect perfection. (: but you've got to know that I love you , and no one else (: so no matter what happens, always remenber that (:


because anything can happen. <3

-I get what you meant :/


"Hey, just in case you want to know. I'm crying now. It isn't all rainbows and sunshines for me either, and i hate having to do this, but I know that i've really got to CONCENTRATE these next two weeks and you've got to too. Remenber how you said that there's always an alternative solution to everything? I'm sure you'll find a way out of whatever that's troubling you now (:
Because isn't that what you always manage to do for me? * **** ***,** *******.
All that matters."


-I don't think i might be that strong as ever now. :/


Well, maybe all of this is just a big misunderstanding between the both of us.
I didn't have the chance to explain and i think i will never will..I didn't expect everything to turn out like this, seriously.because this incident really affected me ..
My school life, band, studies and my results..maybe it's all too late now. I really regretted for causing this big misunderstanding.
But i swear, i didn't expected things to turn out like this at all, as my intentions at first was you to be happy.. I guess i was wrong. :/


Well, maybe i am still unable to erase you from my life.
Because all i know now is, i miss you.
and it's true, this time.
xoxo.

16th November

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD & DAUGHTER NICOLE! (:

Well, not me! But my dad. haha! xP

One is in Thailand, and the other is in Singapore, miles apart, but i managed to sing the birthday song to them, through imeem! (cool isn't it?)

http://www.imeem.com/yrams1602/music/YtouX--q/happy_song_happy_birthday/

hahaha! because i played it through my laptop speakers yesterday, so it's kind of soft ...but he still heard the song. haha! so he said, "eh, son, is someone playing the birthday song downstairs?"
(then i didn't reply.)
then after that, he say "oh, okay, i am going to sleep now."
then i pointed at the clock, "hey dad! it's 12 o'clock! it's your birthday!"

then we started singing the birthday song together with the whole family (yay!)~~ LOL.

Bet he is enjoying himself now at thailand. But dad, you know what?(what?)

I love you dad. (:

Also, a very big happy birthday to everyone that is born on the 16th of Nov! (:

N Levels Over.

N-Levels!

IT'S OVER. N-LEVELS ARE OVER. AWWWWWW!!! WHY MUST N-LEVELS END SO SOON?? WHEN MUST IT END WHEN I AM REALLY STUDYING PROPERLY. =(

Yes, no kidding! i am actually craving for more lessons!

Most of my friends were so happy when the Food Science paper ended today. But i just feel differently. Inside my heart, it's actually saying, "hey! why is it OVERRR..? So soon?". You get what i mean. I am starting to love studying. I can't live without studying! Is becoming a part of me.. Studying is FUNN, studying is interesting, you know, you gain more knowledge from studying?? And, you will find studying fun if you understand what the textbook is trying to tell you about them, haha! i think studying is becoming my habit. It just so hard to accept the fact that N-levels are over.. You know, i actually felt guilty when i played Auditon today? Normally, i will play an hour, then i will start to study till about 2 hours later, i will come back to Audition again, and continue till dinner starts. But today, it seems as if i just woke up from a nightmare. Haha! I actually stopped at the 1st hour, automatically, i switched off the com, proceed to my study table and hop on my coutch to study. But i just happen to recall that N-levels are over. LOL, am i suffering from Annesia? I seem to forget all about N-levels being over. Haha!

Now i have a big question for myself : "What are you going to do ?" N-levels are over, but i am still not in the holiday mood. Strange isn't it? Hm. I think i should study in the meantime. Any suggestions people? haha! IT DOESN'T FEEL GOOD THAT EXAMS ARE OVER!! =(

ANYWAY! Evania, Gracia and Viviann! I've linked all of you guys! (Midzi, something is wrong with your link, so i didn't link you! sorry! Tag me once it's okay! haha! :D)

Hey Peeps! Haven't been blogging for a long time. N-Levels coming.. ahh! stressed! 6 pointssss. howhow! oh yah. yesterday, i went to Sushi Tei at Thomson Plaza for dinner. Managed to get some superb photos. :D

BOOO! :D

Teachers Day.

The Sunshine Maki (Mango Lobster Sushi. xD)

Closer view at the Sunshine Maki.
Its covering is actually mango! SO COOL. :D



Overall View..~


The Kaminabe Steamboat.



18 Sushi Set~~

That's all for today..

Anddddddd.........

JIAYOU FOR EVERYBODY WHO IS TAKING N-LEVELS THIS MONTH and ALL THE BEST FOR ALL THE PEOPLE TAKING O-LEVEL EXAMS! (:

N-Levels.

GOALS for 2008.

17 Days to N's. So i decided to blog my goals out to remind myself to revise. ;P

Chemistry/Physics - A1/A2

Food & Nutrition - A1/A2

English - A1

Chinese - A2

E Maths - B3

Geography/SS - B3

Goal For L1B3, 6 Points. I will start to revise more from now on! ;P

It is just going in circles.

It is just going in circles.
i know this is gonna be a little emotional, but please bear with me, because i really need a place for me to let this all out..
did you ever once felt that things are sometimes done in a way that you wouldn't like it? well, i think i am feeling like this now. To me, everyday is just like a waste of a moment of my life, because due to some reasons, you can't act like yourself..Sometimes, i just can't find a right person to express my feelings out, still can't find the person that i can trust, i really can't take these emotions anymore.

studying is interesting

thanks for everything.

I feel that is studying is beginning to be very interesting towards me now. maybe it's the words from a special person that motivated me to pick up studying again. although the way person used was not really appropriate, but i felt that she was motivating me in a way, and yah, i am very thankful of what she has done. because she really make me feel like studying once again. hahah. back to studying food science. (:

band camp.

Band Camp.

Back from camp, it's been 4days and since i left home, lol. kinda missed sleeping on my bed. [:

Throughout this 4days of intensive training, i can say that i had really learn alot, and our conductor also said we had improved alot as compared to the standard we play before the camp. and during the camp we are really pushed to our limits to do our best that we could. although there are no games, but we are still contented with what we have and what we not have. and in exchange for our games, we get to learn new techniques and proper way of playing our instruments. playing with the correct intonation, rhythm. learning new rudiments and finally playing together as one, big band. this is the first time that i felt that the band is improving. and it really motivates me and also at the same time make myself willingly contribute to the band.

During this 4days, i also found out more about my section member's character. how they work, and how they react, when they faced obsticles during the camp. Although some of us have misunderstandings for each other, but we still managed to talk things out together properly, and also understands what each and other are thinking about. Maybe it's a good thing that we talk things out rather than keeping secrets among ourselves. [:

and walter ng. you know that your n-levels are coming. therefore, you must study to achieve what you want and not disappoint your friends and yourself alright?


-i am listening to my heart.

Batam Trip

i am in love with you;

Hm, today we got back all of our results. I can say that i almost flunked all of my subjects, aww, that's pain. argh, nvm. There is always room for improvement yea? Guess i need some math and chemistry tution during the june holidays. Prelims are around the corner, no excuses for me to slack. So if you see me slacking, pls tell me to study, i will appreciate that alot! haha! jkjk. Hmm, tomorrow there's a secondary 4 motivational camp organised for all the normal acad classes, and we will be going to batam, to enjoy ourselves? haha! okay la, we're going to this 4-star resort there, call Harris Resort, just hope that all of us will enjoy ourselves before we start all the intensive mugging again! hahas! band camp is around the corner too, maybe it's time for me to warm up on drum ruduiments again before i really flunk. xD

-am i being a dummy again?

mini band dinner

Maybe we are possible;

Friday.


The meal that we prepared for the band mates.



Justin & Me.


Smile man! hahah!

Haha, went out with phyllis and her friends for a movie that we are forced to go ! haha. But we enjoyed it afterall! Anyway, we watched Iron Man, and i think that this movie is really very nicely presented. The main actor, Robert Downey Jr, is taking on the role of a troubled billionaire Tony Stark - aka Iron Man who is kidnapped and forced to build a devastating weapon. Then using his intelligence, he went to build a high tech suit and escapes. There are exciting parts of the show, like the part where he escapes from the kinappers, and the part when he is building his iron man machine. This show is rated 4/5 stars for me as i think it is really a must see movie. :D After watching the movie, Phyllis and the others accompanied me to the Basement 1's Polar cake shop, then from there, i met up with my sister and her boyfriend, then after that, i bet farewell to Justin and the others and went to the carpark, then after that, arrived at tpy for the dinner with my family. Overall, the dishes are nice and yummy!

Haha, Had a great time today. :]

-Is it to late to say that i need you?

Maybe i regretted for not cherishing the chances that you have given me;

4am

I feel the same as before;

It's 4am now. And i know i am definately thinking of her, i don't understand why. Maybe i am just overreacting over her? I really don't know how to describe this feeling that i am going through right now. =/

I feel that you shld give me a chance to talk to you.

Because i really need you in my life;

Exams are over! Photos

Justin Looks GHOSTLY. HAHAH!


COLGATE AMBASSADORS. CHEEESEEE!! :D

Justin and me;





HotDog Factory! :D






Leon and Dillon

It looks edited right? But it's not! :D

Hi-FIVE! :D

This summarises my day! Hope you guys enjoyed my post! :D

I hope you're smiling too! :D

Exams are over!

EXAMS ARE OVERRR!!

Hahah. Finally, exams are over. All my hardwork that i've putted in really didn't go into waste. During this 2 weeks, i have really putted in effort to study, therefore, i really hope my results would be good ! :D


Today, after our exams, justin and the others came over to my house to slack abit, and after that, we went to Cathay to watch the movie, "Over the dead body". But before that, we went to HotDog Factory to have our lunch! haha, justin said that the chicken baked rice was nice. But at that point of time, i wasn't that hungry, so i pre-ordered it and it delivered to be later on when the movie is showing. It was damn nice i tell you, the chicken was very nicely done and the cheese just tells your mouth that it wants more, ridiculous right? haha!



Ps: Photos would be published asap! :D

05' May

because you live.

"Be with you"20k audition prepaid
The gigantic keyboard at @club!
@club wide screen & gigantic keyboard! and leon's hand. :X

5 down, 3 to go! finally, i am about done with my exams. For the past few weeks, it's all preparation for the Mid-years, didn't really enjoyed the time in school at all. But my goal is getting near, just 3 more papers, Physics, Chemistry and F&N elective. After all of this, everything is back to normal again! No more mugging, no more backaches and headaches! I can finally live normally in school again! haha! andddd......HOLIDAYS COMING!! 24TH MAY! YAYNESS. I think i am already going crazy just thinking of what i am gonna do during the holidays. :X

are you waiting for me? i really hope that you are, because
old feelings is already starting to flashback on me ;

i am sorry, but i love you.

Fairytales

Just like all fairytales, it all comes to an ending..

For me, it's a tragic one..

-Mixed Feelings;

Out of blow , friendship grows .